The past few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. I went from such happiness having spent some time with my children and grandchildren to feelings of hopelessness and despair as our family found one of our own in the intensive care unit with not very good news. For a little over a week now I have been surviving on lots of coffee and cafeteria food or take out since all my waking moments are either at work or at the hospital.
There are some who might feel that the stress from the current situation might be the perfect
reason excuse to put my goals aside. I have to admit, I was starting to lean that way. I found myself focusing on all the “what if’s” and things that just HAD to be done rather than slowing down and making a plan. Last night I cracked and had my moment of glory craziness where my husband was very aware that I needed both sleep and a break.
Thank goodness for great husbands! This morning I woke up thinking a little more clearly and I am ready to take responsibility for my life and leave the things I have no control over to God. He knows what to do and I just need to let go and step back. I am in the fight for my own life and I am not helping anyone by continuing the path of self-destruction which I have followed for so many years.
This morning I took the time to pack my breakfast and my lunch for work and took something out of the freezer which can be prepared quickly for dinner tonight when I get home from the hospital. No more grabbing fast food just because
it’s convenient I did not plan ahead and it is the “easy” way out. I also have fruit on my desk and almond butter in the kitchen here at work for snacks. I am no longer using life’s road bumps as an excuse to stop caring about my own health. I have taken responsibility for my own health and well-being and this is one battle I intend to win!
Weigh in for week 3 on Weight Watchers was last Friday. Due to a last-minute trip across the country and the subsequent illness that followed, I have not posted the results yet.
Drum roll please……….
4.4 pounds lost!!!!
That is not a typo, I did in fact log a 4.4 pound loss on my first week of being serious and not making excuses. This is proof that I can do it! I am not expecting to duplicate that success this week at all. Not only did I fly across the country to Reno , but I came home with the flu of some sort. While it was worth the one day trip to surprise my daughter, it completely disrupted my routine.
Don’t get me wrong. I did not do too badly, but I was not good either. But isn’t that what life is? Adjusting yourself to the situation and your surroundings? So, I went to IHOP for breakfast, used my best judgement, and put the fork down when I was satisfied. I did not clean my plate nor did I feel deprived at all. I also had pizza for dinner with my family Sunday night. Again, not the best choice, but I ate two slices and drank water.
I flew home Monday and immediately came down with some kind of stomach virus. I am not sure if someone on the plane was sick or if my granddaughter passed it onto me while I was with her. Either way, all night Monday and all day yesterday were pretty unpleasant for me. Today, I am feeling a lot better and hopefully I can actually eat.
In an effort to get back to the initial goal of incorporating walking/running into my routine, I have found this program from Skinny Ms Fitness on Facebook and I think it is doable for me since I can’t jog at my fitness level. But, I can walk so I think this will be a great thing to incorporate with my strength training at the gym.
Do you have any words of advice for me? I can use all the help I can get because I am determined to get healthy!
I have always liked fruits and veggies, but for some reason have the hardest time getting them into my daily life. Part of it is because the rest of my family is not real fond of anything which was once a plant and part of it is because I get just lazy and go with the flow.
In an effort to find healthy snacks to curb my hunger, I have been buying more fruit. Well, one day last week I was so hungry and there were still a few hours before dinner. I really did not want to eat that early because I knew that I would most definitely be hungry again in no time. After about 10 minutes of arguing with myself about what I wanted to snack on, I grabbed an apple (instead of the bag of Doritos). Not only did that apple satisfy me until it was time to eat dinner, but I ended up eating less at dinner.
OK, I know you are thinking to yourself that everyone knows that the fiber in fruit/vegetables is filling and they are packed full of all kind of nutrients, but one does not get to be 300+ pounds by thinking logically about food.
My relationship with food has been delusional to say the least. After all, there is corn in tortilla chips, and when you eat only one serving to curb hunger there is no harm, right? Fast forward 15 minutes. The entire bag is gone along with whatever I found to dip them in along with some soda or juice to wash it down and I am still hungry? Is that rational to anyone? It’s not even rational to me and I have done it hundreds if not thousands of times.
This seemingly small victory has started a huge trend for me. Strange as it sounds, that one apple gave me the ammunition I was looking for against my hunger. Every day since, I have eaten at least one apple and on most days I have eaten two throughout the day and amazingly enough I have not really been hungry. When I have gotten the urge to eat I have found that I am gravitating away from the junk and towards the apples, bananas, and pineapple. The extra bonus is that fruit is zero points if you are following Weight Watchers!
Maybe, just maybe, I am on to something. 🙂