Monthly Archives: December 2011

Bring on 2012!


The time has come to reflect on 2011 and move towards 2012. While I can’t say that I accomplished all that I set out to this year, I can say that I have learned so much. Here are just a few things I am taking into 2012 with me that I did not have last year at this time:

  • An amazing communityof literally hundreds if not thousands who are rooting me on.
    • How lucky am I that I have all these personal trainers, motivators, friends, and mentors whose knowledge and experience I can draw from?
  • A better understanding that weight loss/health is just as much mental as it is physical.
    • Until now I never took the time to deal with the emotional aspects of being overweight and the reasons why I got this way to begin with. It goes much deeper than just the love of food.
  • I have a better relationship with myself which has resulted in a better self-image the way I am now rather than the way I wish I was.
    • This is directly related to the previous statement. Until I really started to understand why I am hiding behind my size, I really did not understand what steps need to be taken to fix it.

These last couple of months, I have worked very hard to work through all the denial and the brutal honesty is paying off.

Finally! I have a plan. It may not be the plan that works for anyone else, but it is a plan for me. I am taking this journey one day at a time and I will stop to smell the roses when I need to. I have nothing else but time, so I might as well not rush through it.

As I stated in my previous blog, my first short-term goal is to find constructive ways to deal with my emotions and stress other than eating and feeling sorry for myself. Hmmm, the first thought that comes to mind is the gym! 🙂


The Aftermath of Christmas


Like so many, I got caught up in the craziness of Christmas and ate A LOT!

Unlike so many, I am not waiting for the New Year to get back to business.

Christmas day was spent reflecting on the past year and remembering all the promises I made to myself which were broken, all the goals which were made and not met, and the self loathing which resulted.

About two weeks ago I decided enough is enough. The Fairy Godmother is not going to wave her magic wand and make years of self-destruction disappear. I also am not going to meet any of those goals by writing them alone. Yes, I know it is a shock to everyone that writing something down does not make it so. You mean I have to actually work at it?

Let’s take my 5K in February goal. To be fair, when I set that goal (in April) I was working out and feeling good. I thought that if I set the goal far enough in the future, that I would have no problem meeting that goal. I mean, 10 months is more than enough time to get in shape for a 5K even at my size, right? Here are the problems with that thought process:

  • 10 months leaves you plenty of time for procrastination (if you are a procrastinator like me)
  • The month delay also made it feel not real for some reason
  • I announced the goal to the world, set up a FaceBook page just for that goal with accountability in mind. For some reason this did the opposite and I put a lot of pressure on myself. I gave up before I even gave myself a chance.
  • I let life get in the way and took my eye off the goal because it was something I could “worry about later”

Let me just put it out there publicly. The 5K goal in February (which I signed up for and paid for by the way) is more than likely not going to happen. I am not being a pessimist nor am I giving up on myself. I am telling you that with just a little over a month to go, I can barely walk a mile without pain.

Here is a clear-cut, very short-term goal to take myself into the new year:

For the remainder of 2011 and the month of January I will not eat my emotions or my stress. I am finding better ways to deal with life.

As my co-worker has told me, exercise is the not only an excellent way for her to deal with her stress, but the only way. I already knew that, but it is about time I actually apply the knowledge.

How have I dealt with the aftermath of Christmas? I have not let the loss of control actually control me. I took control back and I am on my way to healthy!

Week 1- A Review


This week has been a struggle. I was a little slow out of the gate, but I managed to finish strong. For my first week back to tracking my food, I have logged a 2.6 pound weight loss! Considering it was the week before Christmas, that is pretty good! Well, for anytime it is good, but imagine what it would have been if I had not taken 3 days to actually apply the tools I paid for and tracked my food!

Christmas is in two days and I am a little worried about it. Although I am not having any special celebrations or anything due to my husband working and my son being out of town, I have been invited to my in-laws’ house. There is always an abundance of food, desserts, and alcohol at their festivities. I am planning on drinking plenty of water and filling up on veggies before I go.

Wishing all of you a Merry Christmas!

Oatmeal and Coffee oh My!


My standard breakfast this past week has become oatmeal and coffee. It has only been a few days since I signed up for Weight Watchers Online again, but I can tell you I am already feeling better and sleeping better.

I needed a quick, healthy breakfast which I could easily prepare at work, but would keep me satisfied until lunch time. I have had success with oatmeal in the past, but I wanted something I could just grab without preparation. That leaves me two options:

Frankly, instant oatmeal packets may be convenient, but they are far from my idea of tasty or healthy. So, I created my own “instant” oatmeal mixture to get me through the week. Add some almond milk and cook and I have a healthy, satisfying breakfast in minutes. Couple that with a cup of coffee, no cream and two Splendas, I am a happy girl. Here is the recipe for my oatmeal mixture:

(One 3/4 Cup serving is 6 Weight Watchers Points Plus Value and if you prepare it with 1 1/3 C unsweetened almond milk it takes the PointsPlus Value to 8.)


  • 3 1/2 cup(s) Quaker Old fashioned oats, dry   
  • 1/2 cup(s) dried mixed fruit, diced   
  • 6 Tbsp sugar substitute   
  • 4 Tbsp ground flaxseed
  • 1 tsp table salt   


  • Mix all ingredients and store in plastic container. Makes 6 3/4  Cup servings.
  • To cook: combine with 1 1/3 cups hot liquid (water, milk, soy milk, etc) and let sit to desired consistency.

***Please note: this is a rather large serving. I am a rather large lady… as my waist size shrinks, I intend to cut the serving size. Customize it to your tastes and appetite. 🙂

To make this completely grab and go store individual servings in zip-seal type snack bags. Your own instant oatmeal packs in a jiffy!

Not Giving Up!


In previous posts I have indicated that tracking my food is not for me. I then backed it up with several excuses reasons of why it just is not practical. If you have been following my posts either here or on FaceBook, then you know that I have not exactly been consistent lately. Actually, some might feel that I had given up gone on vacation.

Let’s just say I have been on a small hiatus and I am back. I have come to the realization that sometimes I just can’t do things “my” way and I may need a little help. Over the weekend I made the decision to give myself an early Christmas present and signed myself back up for Weight Watchers online tools. I weighed in and started tracking. There is no sense in waiting for the New Year when I have put life off long enough.

I will be updating all my info to reflect the fact that I am on Weight Watchers and expect some of my goals to be modified. I want to do things right and take my time so I don’t gain the weight back again. I know I can do this. The only time we fail is when we give up and I have NOT given up.